organizedchaos221

I really liked that girl I was talking about in my last journal entry. We met through a dating service. Messaged back and forth a lot. We are very compatible, since I have told this story too many times today I am going to do a tl;dr of it here... Things didn't really go like I thought they would. I got weird and did my usual, kinda meld myself to be more attractive or more compatible with her. There was little I had to do though...we are both very naturally jivin'. The thing is that she wanted to take things slow, but after a few dates things just were rolling along. Things between us, specifically emotions, seemed to get too intense too q

I'm not going to spill, cos I've pretty much said I wanted to say about it on my tumblr, but basically she's really great. Cute, smart, funny, good head on her shoulders. She a photographer, very involved in art communities as well as Equal Rights activism. She graduated with an art degree of some sort, wants to complete school and be an Art Administrator. Basically, it involves working with artists, people, communities...keeping art and artists and galleries connected, networking, in touch. Reaching out to bring more people in. It's pretty cool. She's vegetarian, working on going totally vegan. Good goals, very sweet, emotional, but also v

I've been gone for so long. I've been kind of afraid to come back, honestly. I haven't really spent any time drawing in months. It's disgusting. It's either I'm not inspired, I don't have time, or I'm up all night doing other pointless things. I've talked to Koji numerous times about it and she keeps telling me the same things. She has to be right, but I'm just not disciplined enough to focus like I should be. There's so many other bullshit things going on right now. I hate to sound like I'm whining, but I totally would be. It's just what I've been thinking about for a while now, I'm stuck in a life that isn't quite mine. I have a routine, I